~Kappa~ Tang Shih Yuan

Of all the things I expected in my life I never expected it to happen. Not that everything was all roses and sunshine... but you still don't expect shit like that. There wasn't anything I could do... and still I keep beating myself over it. "If I had just been there maybe they'd be alive today." I guess it's easier to blame myself then to accept it. Maybe I'm trying to hang onto the pain. Maybe I need to hang onto the pain.